Loose

(playing >> Daniel Caesar - Loose)

have you ever been thinking of a song and then it turns out every words on it describe everything? i know it's cliche, but that's what frequently happens in my life. usually the songs will popped out when i woke up in the morning, and i start to stare blankly to think about everything. 2018 has been a thoughtful year for me. i'm being someone that i couldn't ever think about. it's totally different me, (in a good way, i guess) like i never think twice on everything i do. i never see bad things on every decision i make, because i always tell myself i only live once. but now, everything change. i always being a skeptic one, always drown on my mind for every possible things will happen later. it stressed me out with every thought i have. i'd rather be alone in my room, than i have to go out (most of the times, but sometimes i still hangout with my friends because i love them!) but that's okay, because this is how i live now. and i'm still happy. yes i do, i still have those sillyness with me and i will always be the one who put a smile in everything. so bear with me, the new me.

i'm not a big fan of beach, but i still in love with the waves sound. it always calm me. i love to see how to the tide will come and go, i love how beautiful the sky is. it heals me sometimes, when i have a lot things on my mind, i need some time alone maybe i will be on the beach to see how beautiful is my surroundings.

handmade crochet market bag by me! 

Sanur, May 2018

2016

it's been a while.
2016 had me going ups and downs, but i know all the things happened never left me without lesson. i could learn something new, and always remember to be thankful about everything.
so, if you guys don't know about me, few months ago i did work for a local (clothing) brand in Bali. ugh 24hrs is not enough for 1 day. because not only for the local brand but also my own brand, and my uni lyfff. but nothing lasts forever. and i know sometimes everything won't going the way that we want.

lesson learnt! one lesson i've learn that i have to be more careful to choose some people to work with,  because we never know the one who just take an advantage of you and then leave. it's just sad, i used to trust everyone, i never had negative thought about people. i know there's always a good thing in people but not everyone has a good attitude at work. it's sad and it's hurt me a lot. i got disappointed. i was really down at that time. it's breaking me so hard. it's all about minor issues that's not that big thing to worried. i don't know what kind of "effective", because i did work my ass off. i really really responsible with my job desk, and i really really took everything seriously about my work. but at the end, i didn't get any good word but only "not good" comment about my work. like seriously? i used my weekdays time (11am-5pm) for did my work for those local brand, but it's not enough. it's always never enough they said. yea hooman never get satisfied, right? i was really tired for did everything with all of my heart, and i got nothing but disappointment. it made me sad, pissed off, stuck, everything, bad things. why does people just appreciate things? like this little thing, just show it with good word, it's not because of the money. i never really thought about it, i don't want to be naive, i need money, money for my life, needs, everything. but the main thing about all the thing that i wanna say just take a bit appreciation about others work. you never know the struggle with a lack of time. so, respect it. it's just made me enough. I'm done.

but, it's already done. I'm letting go the bad vibes, and now start to the new chapter of my life. i know everything happened for a reason, and i accepted the lesson. there is no rainbow without rain. it's not the end of the world for Nana.

Laneway Festival 2016

it's a dream comes true. it's an early birthday gift. it's a really good start for my 2016. yup, i won the Laneway Festival ticket! everything won't be happen if my brother didn't tell me about the competition. I'm so blessed, and lucky! so i won 2 tickets for Laneway Festival. the competion held by Fimela, and i never thought before i could win the competition. because, you know there's other people who more excited than me and I'm surely their style are much better than mine. but after all, i felt like a really really lucky girl. i got a tagged of picture from Fimela said that I'm one of the winner! on that day, i couldn't be more happier in my early 2016!

Thank you Fimela for letting me won the competition. it's such a great experience for me!

check out my instagram for a 15sec video, i'm sorry for not makes any longer video because I'm just too excited until i forgot all these post thing :( sorry not sorry guys. but i could tell you tell the whole story if we could meet up face to face! LOL. it's my first time for travel outside my country alone. i went with first flight, doing all the check in by myself. it's a great things that i've learnt, even though i met my brother in SG for accompanied me watch the concert, but I'm proud to myself i could be as independent as it was! this also what I've been dreaming before, travel alone. at first, i thought it would be soo boring and i can't enjoy the whole days. but the facts, i enjoyed all the time!

maybe, you feel boring when reading this post but this is like my first experience and I'm so happy for every first-time-moment i had in my life and i want to share with you! :3 i will try to post more about travel later, i won't promise you but i will try..... because i used to enjoy every trip i went without any updates in my social media hahahahaha. but i'll try it later. and here's some photos that i (remember) took.

it's been a gloomy day at Singapore :( but it didn't make my festival-spirit go away!

I'm wearing
dhouvu apparel top
thrifted long pants jeans
MOV sandals

us the sibling at Laneway Fest! 

how i love the vibe, the crowd and absolutely their style! 

Overloaded!

as you can see, there's a bit difference on my blog. yup, i re-edit anything. maybe for phone users, it will just turn to be pink. just pink. but if you open my blog from laptop or computer, you can see there's a bunch of my favorite things on baground!!! yep, there's a bunch of watermelon, i love watermelon, i really really love it. i love how it taste, i love eveything on watermelon! hahahahaaha (maybe this is kinda an odd fav things) so i decide to make watermelon as my baground, as you can see. ITS JUST SOOO CUTEEE, AND IT FEELS LIKE I WANT EAT MY LAPTOP RIGHT NOW. urrrgh, sorry for my weirdness. teheeee, i hope you like it too!

here's some of what i've on this month (yeay!) actually these are some of my wishlist. i am so happy this month, i am overloaded! thank you and thank you!!! <3 nbsp="" p="">

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha i made every photos on gif, look how madly i am when i just started know about how to do something. ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

this is turkish eyes. it gifted from Turkey. its like a dream catcher, yep something about protection us from bad things. the difference with dream catcher is this thing will make bad things will go away from you.

this is a good gift, i hang it on my room. hope every bad things will go really really away from my life.
Amen! 

hey! i just want you guys know, i and my bloggers friends will make a garage sale on this weekend (March 1&2 2014). so if you guys in bali, its our pleasure to see you on our event! its not just a garage sale! we will be donated some of our income, so it would be nice if you guys come and help others too! 

this is the map of our venue (if you still don't recognize where is it.)

check our updates on our twitter here , feel free for ask anything about our event!

so i hope to see you there, sweeties! 

THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME, LOVE! X

I wish.

well, happy new year everybody! may you have a great year ahead! i know its kinda too late for say it, but i think today and tomorrow and the day after tomorrow and on and on still in the euphoria of the new year, rite?! teheeee. New year, new hope, new resolutions. yup! as my promise i would share to all of you what my resolutions are. i know its a bit ashamed, but i already made a promise. Huf. Huf. Huffffff. so here it is.

sorry for my bad writing hahahaha.

I'll explain you one by one the reasons behind my resolutions.

1. Don't trust people too much. Because at last, it will hurts you so bad.

yea, i always learnt after i got every problem, in 2013. peoples are not too good to be trusted, because at one time when you don't know, they would stab you in behind, or maybe they also can stab you in front of you. pathetic. i should beware, because not every people have some expressions inside and their outside. 

but, i always thankful there's some peoples who always be kind and accept for who i am without judge me in my back, and they always support me whenever i'm going down, always there when i need their support. 

so, i wish in 2014, i will meet more friends who accept me for who i am, and don't judge me. talk bad in my back.

2. always SMILE even when you're in a bad time or not in a good mood

hahaha, i really really have to change my habit. i always have a bad mood everyday, i dont know what the reasons why i should bad mood, i am really really sorry for some peoples for got my bad mood, i really mean to y'all guys, forgive me huhuhu.

so, i want to change it. because i live not just by myself, but with other peoples. they never knows what's happen with me until i got a very very bad mood. so just be kind to other peoples, Nan. YOU SHOULD DO THAT.

3. FIX MY GRAMMAR (ASAP!)

THIS IS THE IMPORTANT THINGS THAT I HAVE TO DO IN 2014! i really admit it that my grammar and my English are so bad.. very very very bad!!! so forgive me about that. i will more learn about that, and i will improve it as soon as possible. *fingercrossed*

4. Run my own label

actually, i already have one. named "HOUVU". butttt, the thing is, my first collection is haven't come up yet. i still sell some clothes, used and new stuff. i promise!!! the brand will grow up in 2014, with an unique and unpredictable collection, just wait and see galss!!! don't forget to follow my shop in instagram and twitter for the newest update! 

PS: for your information, i have a nice promo for all of you! FREE SHIPPING FOR ALL CITIES IN INDONESIA!!!~ so, check and grab 'em fast. the promo will end in Feb 28th 2014. So hurry up gals!

5. Love every people who loves you and more love-ing people who hates you.

this is another thing i MUST do in 2014. in a past 3years, i live in overthink. it because, i always and always think about other people who hates me but i didn't know what the reasons behinds on it. why are they have to hates me? what's wrong with me? or what should i do with them?. butt, in 2013 i am so thankful to having a lots of friend which teaches me lots of things that i couldn't know before. i learn that i shouldn't care about peoples who hates me, talking bad behind me, judge me, and other bullying stuff. i just don't care anymore. i just don't wanna be stress just only because of it. 

please, chill out haters. i know y'all just have jealousy feeling with me because my life are so perfect and y'all want to live just like me. i love y'all with all your hateness with me, hahah i don't careeee

6. Be nice to everybody, even they have two faces or more.

no reasons needed, this point has already clear. people with lots of faces, digusting. but maybe, they have another reasons behind it. why they have to be like that, or whatever. the only thing with people like that jusssttttt, be patience. and keep your chin up and keep smile whatever it hurts.

this is my 6 resolutions that i reall really want it to be happens in 2014, not just for 2014 but also for the next year after, and goes on and on. i still have a lot of resolutions for 2014, but i still concerned about it. hahahaahaha, afterall i still have a resolutions which i ALWAYS put it on my resolutions list, but i never never (until now) make it happen! the resolutions is, DIET! this is the hardest resolutions for me!!!!! because you know, lots of good food, and i think have a phobia maybe like i always want everything that i see on my eyes, in Bahasa i used to call it "laper mata" aaaaargh.. but in 2014, i really really really want to make the resolution happens! please pray for me, hahahaha!

but after all, the only thing you have to remember just...

LIVE YOUR LIFE INTO THE FULLEST. 

BECAUSE THERE'S ANOTHER TIME TO HAVE FUN!

WE LIVE TODAY AND NEVER KNOW ABOUT TOMORROW!!!

THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME, LOVE! X

The Sunny Christmas

Happy Christmas everybody!! all around the world, and especially you, yes you! happy happy holiday! hohoho. Christmas day... hmm there's always have a lots of story to tell, and everything are always good on christmas day! don't you realize, that every christmas not just only christian and catholic who celebrate it, but also EVERYONE yep everybody who have a different religion or whtver are also celebrate it too! So, i really excited if we talk about christmas, because it always memorable.. unforgettable.. and most wonderful time i've been waiting for whole year! hehehehe.

after christmas, we got new year! do you guys also excited for new year like i do? yup! I cannot believe in a few days new year would come. Many things happen on this year, there's a sadness mix with some happiness and bitterness and many more feeling are also come and go in my life this year. and im so happy i could thru this year with lots of lesson to learn for being a better me in a next year and later and later.. i thank God for everything that already happened in this year. (finally i know what friends means are, like who always there whenever im feeling so bad, awful, and anything on my dark side)

there's still many things that i wanna tell you, but i bet you already bored and judge-ing my grammar because its too bad to posted hahahaha. but i will learn more about it, i will add it to my resolution in 2014 (i will post my resolution in 2014 later! hihi). i do love everything in 2013, like every moment i had, every lesson i had learn, every pain that made me more stronger than ever. thank God, He still allow me for live until now. hahahah

so, i wanna tell you;

I WISH YOU A VERY BERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS

&

HAPPY GREAT NEW YEAR AHEAD

MAY GOD ALWAYS BLESS AND BE WITH YOU ALL THE TIME! XOXO

This is my outfit on my christmas day, i love to wear something read in december, because i do love christmas, and i love the euphoria of it LOOL. hahaahaha and then, the christmas gift i got from my brother and my sister, happy to have them.

i wear

Watermelon Jumper by @shopseeka (on instagram)

Red Velvet Skirt (my auntie's own)

Black Platform Wedges by PINX

PS: if you want to know more about me or my daily picture. you can follow my instagram and twitter. keep following me! 

THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME AND HAPPY HOLIDAY, LOVE! X

Collete & Lola

a few weeks ago, i went to Jakarta with my mum (but she's back home earlier) im happy because i got an amazing long weekend at there. i could eat some foods that i missed a lot! like shih lin.. bakso pak Kumis blok S, soto mie, okirobox, and many more! but on the gloomy afternoon before i went to PIM, i went to a lovely and well-decorated cafe which is located on Senopati (i didn't remember the full address, but you can google it) the cafe name is "Collete & Lola". you guys should come and try this one! because the decorates are so cute and photo-able (ahahaha, bad grammar).

they have many cakes, like; chocolate cake, cupcakes!, macaroon, and tart. you can enjoy eat your cake with a comfy places! i bet you won't ever feel like you're in Indo hahahaha! the price are still in handle for us, hihi. so this place are already in my to do list while you're in Jakarta. psst! they're not just sell a cake.. but they have a dreams for you hihi.

ps: i know i know its kinda too late for posting this. but this is worth to read! hehehehee

 look! there's an alien cake in there! what a lovely! x) 

 say hello to my brother! hihi

im really sorry for my bad angle or photo taken, im not good enough in take a picture, i admit it huhuhu. but for me its much better than my older post, ughh.
thennnn this is my outift on that day!

Thunder Sweater by Topshop

Plaid flanel long shirt by Uniqlo

Dark Grey Tight by Uniqlo

Folklore bag 

Black Platform wedges by PINX

WELL, this is it! i recommended this place for you guys. Happy holiday! HO HO HO

THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME, LOVE! X

GOES ON and ON

im back again, with my weird habit to make an experiment with my hair.. last month i dyed my hair blue-green and now... i re-bleach my hair (big thanks to Dina for help me to do it, mwah!) finally i got blonde, but not similiar enough with what i want it, but i still thankful heheheeee. at first i want to make my hair turn to purple, lavender exactly but bad thing happened, i cant get the lavender color! soooo i dyed my hair pink at last.. the result are good, good enough for me. im so happy! although the color weren't pink enough ;-p i am proud with my own creation tough!

 (PS: are you looking for dots shirt like i wear above, houvu store have it! come and take a look their instagram (dhouvu) 

im blessed, im thankful, i got the lesson. many things happen in my life lately, and all that i have to do just to be patience in every single time. i got heartbreak, hopeless feeling. but life still goes on no matter what happen in a past. there's a wisdom quotes in Bahasa "salah / ngerasa sakit itu bagus, karena dari sakit itu kita bisa belajar untuk menjadi lebih baik untuk ke depannya." yup. i do agree with those quotes. whenever life bring you down, keep your chin up and be happy!

THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME, LOVE! X

"CIRCUS" FASHION SHOW

hello, pals! how are you? ive been busy lately, because middle test.. lots of task. so i have no time for blogging (sorry T_T) SO! lets beggin, yesterday (nov 7th '13) i was attending Fashion Show at Town House,Seminyak with theme "CIRCUS" by MaiKhanh Bertrand and Gooseberry Intimates with my Bali Fashion Bloggers. The Fashion Show was about Lingerie with a lot of creation and design. i loveeee the runway,the show end with success and the model were so amazing and beautiful! but the problem is, many people walking by around during the runway, why everyone didnt just stay and enjoyed the show. but overall everything were handled, i really enjoyed during the show.

and here's some picture ive took yesterday (sorry for the bad pict, i'm not good at took a pictures :c )
amazing hairstyle and make up presented by: Rob Peetom. great job!

and here's some fav outfits of mine when i saw in there

and kak Yonas's shirt!!! 

here's my outfit <33 p="">

dress : Vintage Market

Shoes: New Look

Earring: Topshop

Bag: Volcom

i had a blast yesterday, good show with good pals <333 p="">

THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME! X